|Waiting for the bus.|
I have never been a teacher before and I guess I should assume there would be a learning curve, but I hate being bad at anything, much less my occupation. I felt like I was the best at Walmart, at the radio station (when I was Production Manager), as a dishwasher, etc. And now I don't feel that way. I feel like the worst and it is weighing on my mind. In fact, I think it even makes me a bad boyfriend. I'm too on edge...
This week in particular, I have been trying to play catch up and also relax. It has been unsuccessful so far. Those are competing notions. But Jackie has tried hard to keep me calm.
|Walking the last few minutes to work.|
To that end, I have gone hiking twice in the last two weeks, seen a movie, gone running a few times and downloaded more music. All of that has helped, but I'm still not feeling my best. I know I can do better, be better. Now I just have to prove that.
As far as work is concerned, I still like a lot of the kids. And I think some of them have become attached to me too. It's nice and it keeps me going, even through the tough days.
And on that positive note, I will go to sleep. Blogging from the phone is difficult.! I left my laptop at work...)